I just graduated from college and people keep saying congratulations. However, as soon as they say it I immediately feel like I want to cry. I have battled depression and anxiety my whole life. Although, there is a part of me that feels like I have been misdiagnosed my whole life, because for it be anxiety and depression I just feel like no one is capable of understanding me. It's like I am so out of control of my emotions. I am also a white privileged female, and it is like people only want to make me feel ungrateful and that my feelings are not in accordance to my circumstance. It's almost like I am not allowed to have mental health issues. I am unemployed, out of school, and actively feel rejected by the universe. I know it's probably not true but I just feel trapped in this stage of my life. People keep telling me it is supposed to be the best, you know, the 20's. But I can't seem to find what is so good about it. I feel like I can't find my place in this world no matter where I go, and in the meantime, I am binge eating in the most unhealthy way possible. I am always scared to do anything that exposes me in any way and that is actively stopping me from doing anything I want.