It all started around 7 to 8 years ago ,when due to some family problems my parents used to fight and my dad started drinking alcohol just to avoid issues . At first we thought it's just a phase and my parents will get over it as I've never seen such issues between them before and I was concerned about them and what it will do to my little brother .But those issues grew up and father who was once an occasional drinker became a regular one .things got worse ,my parents used to fight all the time ,verbally and physically too . My father started to lose consciousness and he used to do destroy everything in kitchen , our food , our stuff at home due to his anger .I used to save my brother from all these but somehow I used to get affected as being the elder one I always knew what was going on . I used to watch my mom cry and my father's condition getting worse . This was continuous for 4 years and after that ,consumption of so much of alcohol started affecting my father and he started having strokes and for 3 years he was admitted around 15 to 16 times in the hospital. Everything that took place at my home somehow broke me and I felt anxious all the time and I felt like its eating up my head.my own thoughts used to scare me ,I somehow managed to go through that and tried to work on myself but things didn't stop . Doctor told my dad that he needs a liver transplant as his liver is completely damaged and my mom was the donor .for 2 months they were admitted and I had my college holidays and I was at home ,taking care of things ,my brother and my family but the surgery failed and my dad passed away . I feel like I'm still in the trauma of the events that had happened with me . I try really hard to move on but that pain ,that sadness is still in me .It becomes really hard to move forward .