I don't know how to feel about my man watching porn and listening to licking ASMR right away after we stop talking to sleep. I have low self confidence and it made me feel worse. What people reading me need to know is that we are muslims, and that we prefer to not practice sex until we get married for religious reasons... But it is cumbersome for me to accept the fact that right after talking with me and about our marriage preparations, he opens the porn tab and enjoy other women but me... I became very judgmental about him and about myself. I started taking pills for flat belly and trying to make savings for lip fillers and other things like this, thinking that the problem is in me and that i am not good enough... I love him, and i just need him to understand that such things hurt.