I’ve always tried to be that happy person to put a smile on everyone & be there for those who need it. But i never really check up on myself and how i feel until i start to feel like i can’t with myself anymore. I start to feel like my world is coming down, hopeless, like I’m not good enough. I’ve always felt like that but always hide my feelings behind a smile. I just always question myself when does it get better? When will i be happy? And finally love myself? Why do i walk around feeling like there’s no hope for me and like everything i do is wrong. I have no one to talk to and someone to tell me it gets better. I feel alone all the time and that’s something I’m scared of is being alone with no one to walk with me through this because my family doesn’t get it and i rather not scream for help because i don’t want anyone to feel bad for me. My entire life I’ve felt like i don’t make anyone proud like a failure. I walk around thinking I’m not going to be happy ever. I n figure it’s okay to not be okay.