I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and i just need to take a pills to survive and live. It was a traumatic for me.Before i was diagnosed i started to feel empty even harming myself everytime i feel my emotions is going to explode or i can't take it anymore. A months later taking a medication is just a normal for me it's been part of my routine especially in my life sometimes when my overthinking kills me what if the time comes that i need to stop taking pills it makes me terrified and anxious at same time.Im on to the conclusion what if i didn't survive without it? What if when i stop it makes my condition worse or go back when i was before. But all the way through i know i just need to trust myself and the progess.It's takes time to heal and leave out to my comfort zone but i know I'm getting there.Even I'm still on the processing of healing i know the processed has an ending and it's gonna worth the wait.