Hey I do not even know where to start, I use this resource for the first time. for the past six months, I've been struggling with deep depression, panic attacks, and delusions of self-pain. All these are the consequences of a very serious but very painful relationship. I still miss that man. Sometimes I have a great desire to drop everything and go to him, but he even forgot my name (I think so) and started a relationship by correspondence. My heart is broken, I don't know how to live because all my friends have turned away at the moment and I am absolutely alone.