During most of my struggle with anxiety, I have always told myself that "things will be better when...". Things will be better when I graduate college. Things will be better when I get a full time job. Things will be better when I am in a happy relationship. But when I did experience these things, they didn’t make my anxiety go away like I thought they would. It has taken me almost two years of therapy to realize that I am always wishing for the next thing to come along in the hopes that it will fix me. It’s so much easier to think that my anxiety will go away some time in the future than to admit that it will probably always be there, even throughout some of my happiest moments and greatest life achievements. I am trying to learn that even though I feel constant anxiety, it doesn’t mean that I am not happy. I am trying to learn that I can be a happy person and also have anxiety. I am trying to learn that it is okay to love and be loved and still be anxious. I can’t be “fixed”, but I don’t need to be.