It started when I was switching house holds between my mom and dad. Every time i got done visiting the other parent i felt empty.Then when my mom and my step dad got divorced, she got a new boyfriend in a week. He was abusive. She was becoming a party person and drinker. Self harmed for a month and all they did was ground me when they found out. Called my reasoning bullshit. Then when I moved to my dads again, It was bad.Shit talked my mom and family back home. Got mad at me. Made it all about them. Mom died in 2017 a week before my birthday.They told me to move on and get over it. Treated like trash by my friends and parents. Boyfriend left me. Dad didnt even budge when i said i wanted to die. Now im here. Living on my own because my parents abandoned me. And its getting hard and stressful. Stuck between what i want to do and then what everyone thinks is right for me to do. Criticize me if I spend money or stay at my current boyfriends place. No one is close to me anymore. Starting to feel empty. Starting to get stressed. Feeling like I cant make it.I don't know if i can anymore.