I used to think, who would be dumb enough to let themselves be abused?  Then it happened to me, and I realized that in that type of situation, you feel scared, numb, and trapped.

Though I wanted to make it stop, I was scared that my efforts would make things worse.  I just remember the moment when he was done.  I was on the floor, and he said to me as he walked out of the room, "There's blood on your carpet.  You should clean it."  I got a rag and detergent and scrubbed away my blood as tears rolled down my face.

Ever since, I can't stop thinking about it. I wanted my first time to be with someone I loved, not like this. I have problems with my boyfriend because I can't make myself feel comfortable now or love when we are together. He knows what happened to me and understands, and has helped me a lot. He is the best.

I just want girls out there to know that they have a voice. If you have been abused, you're not alone. We have to get up and accept that it wasn't our fault.